i am going to a dallas bloggers meet and greet painting party in a couple of weeks, so there's one step!
BUT as whiney as all that was, i can say that i feel like i have some direction.
quiet time is sooo important.
quite frankly i've sucked at it lately.
but i'm trying to get better.
yesterday morning i took my bible and sat on the porch for a while.
i read a few chapters and then started journaling. writing to god - just about things in general...not even about what i had just read. and then it turned into a plea for direction in this new life of mine. a plea for him to make me more like him. and i swear it was like god was speaking to my heart and revealing things as i journaled.
he took me back to my senior year of high school, where a sequence of events resulted in me having zero friends. none.
i went to school everyday and came home - no friends.
just me and mom.
but what i can say is during that time, i got closer to god than ever before.
so while it was lonely, it was an awesome experience as well.
and so here i am.
lonely again. with few friends.
so why not use this as an opportunity to grow spiritually and get myself healthier physically?
well, that's just what i'm going to do.
this is an opportunity for me to invest in me and get some of my own issues straightened out - you know, with god. because apparently i get distracted and need to be reigned in...and well god obviously thinks that needs to be accomplished by stripping every distraction away from me. haha.
but after all that, i'm feeling much better about this here situation i'm in.
i'm actually excited about it. i'm excited to spend time with jesus and let him transform me.
it's a new season. i guess i'm like the caterpillar in the cocoon. i'm wrapped up in jesus and hidden until he's ready to let me spread my wings.