i've been on the verge of an ugly cry for days now. you know when you can feel it coming? like anything at any moment could break the dam? the dam finally broke today. i knew when nothing would satisfy but to make homemade biscuits and gravy for breakfast (on a work day!) that emotions were in full swing.
all it usually takes is a little jesus music to get the tears flowing. the winning song today: the lord our god by passion/kristian stanfill.
well they sang it monday night and the dam almost broke then. so of course i bought it and had it on repeat.
and then this launched: http://www.thecarrycamp.com/
and i then proceeded to BAWL my eyes out over every single page. it's so perfect. finally, some community for those of us struggling with infertility. oh i just can't even wait to see how this explodes into something glorious. please check it out. there's a great section for family and friends too. truth is, we all know someone affected by infertility, so it would do you good to read it!
and then i cried for a good 2 hours. and wrote my family an email letting them know that as wonderfully as I pretend I am ok, I am indeed not ok. breaking out of that comfort zone and asking for help. help through support and prayer.
Promise maker, promise keeper You finish what You begin Our provision through the desert You see it through 'til the end You see it through 'til the end The Lord our God is ever faithful Never changing through the ages From this darkness You will lead us And forever we will say You're the Lord our God In the silence, in the waiting Still we can know You are good All Your plans are for Your glory Yes, we can know You are good Yes, we can know You are good