SUYL: Infertility

It's funny how God works.
I was actually having a bad day on the emotional roller coaster that is infertility when I decided to catch up on my blogs.
And who was first in my reading list?
Kelly with the Show Us Your Life topic of the week.....struggling with infertility.
So of course I was like "OK God. OK."
And so now I write. ;)

This is by far one of the hardest struggles I've been through.
7 years of using no type of protection praying for God's timing.
A good 3 years of deliberate trying. We're currently using Clomid and Progesterone.
And still nothing.
I can look back over time and see the hand of God working in our lives and I'm thankful that for some of those years, we weren't blessed with a child. I don't think we would have made it.
But things are so different now.

For me, I feel like that sometimes the hardest part is trying to discuss this topic with those who have never experienced it.
Sure, they offer advice like "It's just not time", but what they don't understand is how condescending those words come across to someone struggling with this.

It's seriously a daily struggle.
A pep talk to yourself not to fall apart for the daily facebook update of yet, someone else announcing their pregnancy.

It affects me differently every day.
And then during the time of trying...the roller coaster is brutal.

Your boobs hurt and you think, Oh God this is it, this is really it, and then you realize it's just a PMS symptom!

OR you have a procedure that's supposed to be the magic answer, but instead it sets you back about 5 months.

I have PCOS. A definite BIG block in the mix. But even through the struggle of this, I know my God is able. And I will continue to hold on to that as long as I live.

But I'm definitely excited to connect with others who are in the same boat I am. That I can encourage, and that can encourage me. Because, after all, I do believe that every trial we go through should be used to help someone else who is going through the same thing.