I have a problem.

something is wrong with me.
seriously, i think there's something wrong with my brain and getting started on things.
i have tons of grandiose ideas but i just can't start them for some reason.
over the past few days, i've become aware of more and more areas of my life where i do this.

take for instance, my diet.
the doctor told me i needed to eat clean.
15 days ago he told me this. you know, so i can have a baby and fix my pcos issue.
so for 15 days i have eaten as unclean as possible.
why?
i have lots of reasons excuses, but really, what is the deal?

or another example...jesus.
yes jesus.
while unpacking the other day i ran across a journal from my first year as a christian.
i was soooo eager for god and for knowledge about him.
and reading that totally rekindled something in my heart.
i mean i haven't been away from god or anything, but i miss that newness and eagerness to draw close to him.
so i made a schedule to set aside time to work on this.
yet for some reason, i've yet to open my bible.

that schedule also included other items to overhaul my life, like working out, etc.
but for some stupid reason my brain has some sort of block from me actually doing.
friends, this has to change. like now.
i'm over it. over myself.

how are some ways you push past resistance?